My time to shine...

Last night I text message Jim the GM (who is on vacation till tuesday) about some of the notes he left me on stuff that has to get done before the owner of party city shows up on tuesday. he writes me back the anwsers, and ends his text with im counting on you its your time to shine... LOL OMG talk about adding pressure to the situation.

Got a wedding today. shes a pretty chilled out bride so it should go smoothly.

My brother is coming home for a visit next month hopefully ill get to see him its been like 3 years maybe more since ive actually seen him...

wow im tired today..

i hope i can do all this stuff I have to do.. cause im not feeling too shiney right now LOL! i feel like taking a nap!!! OK Im motivating myself. i can do anything right! just gotta stay in the right frame of mind!


LMAO
Anna

working all weekend wont be on much

but im saving up days for when rex comes home.. which should be next weekend.. I think we are going away for a couple of days together.. Now that should be fun! we never get to go away Im always working when he comes home so I am


Ordered pasta for diner tonight damn its taking forever to get here!

Im starving didnt eat all day ... LOL


ah its here and my show is on woohoo its gonna be a nice evening!~

Descions descions descions....

something in my life has to give.. either the wedding gig thing has to go or party city or both and do something totally different... what I want to do is photograph but reality check tells me that i need to earn money or sell all my shit and go on an adventure... I dont hate my life, but I cant seem to focus in on my goals. I cant seem to find my balance... even though it was a struggle at times just doing the hair and makeup I was happy and had plenty of time to focus in on my art... now I feel trapped like ive commited my life to all of these things and all I really want to do is run away LOL. I mean Im 41 for goodness sake.. and I still dont know what I want to be when Im grown up LOL Oh yeah Im grown up now wtf!

I think I need a vacation or something!

go someplace that noone knows me and just chill for a few days and see if i can find my clarity...

Tuesdayyyyyyyyyyy.... LOL

well its tuesday morning, Im off today so time to pick up from my party ... LOL there are leis everywhere LOL.
nothing new and exciting here today if anything comes up Ill let you know.

Hannah did you get your paper done or go to bed or what girlfriend?

Hugs
anna

The Post Secret show in Melbourne

I enjoyed an afternoon with marv and hannah at the brevard art museum and then a walk through downtown looking in all the shops cause they were all closed by the time we got there LOL...

The Post secret show at the art center was amazing. It is a very personal thing to read the secrets of other people some you realate to some you laugh at and some make you want to cry, its a very overwhelming and powerful display of the humanity all around us. If you live in the area or can travel there or the display comes to your location I truly suggest you take the time to check it out. It will leave you with very mixed emotions and thinking about the people you walk by everyday, I throughly enjoyed it and I am sure if you go you would too.
Anna

A Big Thank you

I just want to say Thank you to everyone for coming out last night and celebrating my birthday with me... I had a lot of fun and it was so awesome to finally meet Hannah and Marv! Two of the coolest people I have had the pleasure of spending time with in a while! And Hannah thank you so much for all my lovely gifts. they will be used i promise and I LOVE LOVE LOVE my necklace and purse fob you made me . They are absolutely stunning!!!

Its not often you can just kick back and relax and enjoy who you are and where your at in your life.. Just being you and knowing everyone around you is cool with that.

It rained a little last night. but we just moved the chairs around to avoid the leaky dock roof.

Im proud to say i woke up in my bed (with a little grogginess) but no boobs in hand LOL..

It was awesome to see lori again, funny how life separates you from people you truly love and when you come back together its like nothing really change yet everything has.

Im so trying to motivate to go to melbourne this morning I really really want to go to the post secrets show.but im still sleepy lol i want to take another nap! I dont think i went to bed till like 4 am LOL.. oh hannah you gotta go read the new ones this morning... and he is putting 15 on face book every week now too...that show is gonna be so cool. maybe a shower will kick me in gear.


good lord there is a lot of food left here.. and noone ate my cupcakes lol i think they were too pretty

Pictures from my birthday party part 2

Pictures from my birthday party

Over flowing Joy!

Pure and Utter Happiness, with who I am with where I am with the people around me. LIFE IS AMAZING!

Happy Birthday to Me LOL

wooohooo I made it another year... cant wait to see what wild and crazy things are to come for me!

Hope everyone has as great a day as I plan on having LOL

Love
Anna

Thursday morning sunshine! LOL

the wind is finally dying down here damn man for days its just been whipping through here non stop like 15 mph winds... it almost gets aggravating cause you cant really enjoy it outside when its like that... I hope it stays like this for saturday... 3 mph i can handle... LOL

Well its hump day woohoo! LOL

Im off from party city today so Im gonna get all the chores done and yard cleaned up for saturday... I am so excited cant wait to see everyone. Tony sorry your not gonna be in town but we will take lots of pictures...and I talked to the fire spinner guys they are coming out to do another show...

going to order the cupcakes today went earlier but publix doesnt open till 8 am ... what the heck man! LOL


I hope winn dixie still sells those fat hotdogs LOL.

went to look for a birthday outfit yesterday at catos... nothing there I loved so i guess ill have to go check out ross on my break tomorrow.

well ill check back in later gonna get some stuff done and I have a wedding to go do at 11 so i want to get as much as i can done this morning
Anna

Good Morning world!

>LOL i have tricked myself twice now because i keep forgetting to fix my time on my alarm clock ... its like an hour early so It goes off and i push snooze for the next hour and i get up finally whining about it only because i have to go to work LMAO and its the time i was supposed to get up which makes me kinda glad im not running late. LOL i know im a goober.


Im off tomorrow from party city but i have to go do a bride. hopefully early and be done with it.. Ill know tonight.

Started pulling all the furniture and stuff off the dock last night to clean it all for saturday. so everything looks good LOL... gotta go find me a birthday outfit... maybe tomorrow.

well better get on the road ...

Have a great day yall
love
Anna

Back to the world of work....

well, monday morning 4 am and Im up and dressed to go makeover a bride and her mom for the big day... ugh this is tooo early for this kind of thing! Then I get to go to party city and work 10 hours... Man I keep thinking what the hell have done to my own schedule to create this cluster of work all the time... i miss being home and chillin out all day like i used to LOL... oh well cei la ve' or how ever you spell it.


you know what it is... having one day off ... then its back to work I would rather have 2 days in a row off you can relax more and get more accomplished... I guess for now those days are over.


I did have a very calm day yesterday downloaded songs for the karaoke machine most of the day..(fighting with my stupid servers they are being a pain in the butt for some reason..) so there is some new music for this weekend,

I hate to tell party city but im not working all day on my birthday ... its not happening... Ill go in ill help open and Ill stay a while but Im not working till 5 or 6 pm and they can fire me if they want to LOL.

rex called he went from west virginia to ohio and down to kentucky all yesterday LOL thats some serious driving... LOL glad i dont have to pay for the gas ... I dont know how trucking companies can afford to stay in business..

well, i guess i better finish getting ready

have an awesome day everyone
anna

Good Sunday Morning!

Well, I made it to another day off. and Sunday morning is always fun, I hope the sun starts shinging a little this morning. its kinda hazy out on the lake today. but im enjoying my sunday morning acustics and chillin out..

Hope you all have a beautiful day
Anna

Is it 4:00 yet?

off to work. woooooooooooohoooooo LOL that was a sarcastic wooo!

see yall this afternoon!
Anna

Fridays...

have you ever noticed how when you get to the end of a work week, it just seems like it drags... One more day to go and I cant wait to be off on sunday, am I gonna do anything... probably not... LOL Im so tired today. I could almost go to bed now.

I spent my day recounting 2 pallets of boxes and all the stuff packed inside that we sent to the party city warehouse and someone didnt count and mark properly. Yeay... LOL
It was a pretty easy day for me since i just had to sit and write and count but It was boring as hell and I was in a dingy warehouse lifting big ass boxes all day... i think this day falls under even if your having a shitty day someone else is having a shittier one LMAO...

I did enjoy some pasta and apple pie for dinner... and got caught up on some tv shows online...

and I booked a bride for october woooooo!

so all is not bad.

well Hope your all having a great day

Love yas
anna

The things Ive Learned at 40

My 41rst birthday introspect:

so I decided to sit down this year and write the things I have learned about myself, life, love , art and who I want to become over the rest of my life.


First of all i was reminded at the beginning of this 40th year of my life that I am loved by many different people. for many different reasons.

I learned it is good to laugh at yourself sometimes.


I learned that love no matter how deeply you feel it sometimes just isn't enough. I also learned that sometimes ... It is!

I learned its ok to be alone. and I don't need someone to validate who I am as a woman.


I learned that I have strengths beyond what I thought I had.

I learned that teaching someone something new is rewarding and watching them take that to a new level is even more rewarding.


I learned that when you try something new even if your not good at it will make your soul soar for just trying it.


I learned that the past must stay the past and that you can never really go back to it.

I learned that no matter how shitty of a day your having someone else is having a shittier one.

I learned that trust among friends means everything, and once its broken its hard to repair.

I learned that secrets of any kind are not healthy but releasing them can set you free.


I learned that having a strong work ethic is invaluable and can take you to new levels of life.


I learned that sex isn't love. and love doesn't mean sex LOL I know it took me a while to figure this one out at 40 lmao.

I learned that cooking dinner for 1 is very hard to do, but throw out some candles and put on some music and add my beautiful lake and all is good.


I learned that hammocks in the spring are awesome for naps.

I learned that singing as loud as you can weather it sounds good or not can be so fun!

I learned that waking up naked on your couch, with your boob in your hand reeking of Bacardi probably means you drank one too many drinks the night before.


I learned that although I am really good at it I don't want to be a makeup artist for much longer.


I learned that all work and no play takes its toll on you and sometimes you just gotta say ... screw it I'm gonna have some fun.


I learned if you keep doing the same things over and over expecting different results in the end your probably crazy~

I learned that loving a pet is unconditional and loving a person isn't!

Ive learned that real friends stick by you no matter what happens and shitty friends DON'T!

Ive learned that you can love your family more as an adult and cherish every moment with them.especially the generations before you.

I've learned that stopping and listening will give you more education then trying to insert your opinions.


I've learned that deep passionate undying love hurts so badly sometimes you want to break out of your skin, but you will never forget it for the rest of your life. nor will you want to.



I've learned that fishing is fun but riding in the boat is way more fun.

I've learned that not every moment is a photograph some are just meant for me to see and cherish in the moment.


I've learned that the zoo is a hard place to shoot animals with all the stupid fences!


I've learned I cant do it all! even though I haven't learned how to stop trying.

Ive learned that my body is beautiful and that I am beautiful becuase god made me. and he gave me a beautiful soul.


Ive learned that forgiveness is priceless and the rewards for it are far greater then you ever expected.

Ive learned that I am someone who makes most people feel good but I make men I am dating feel bad about themselves without realizing it. I'm sorry for that to all of you I did this to. I see it now and I am changing that part of myself because i don't like to make anyone feel bad.


I learned that there is never enough time in a day and days go faster the older you get.

I've learned that I still have a lot to learn about life but my mind is open to new education.


I've learned that my camera is the best investment I have ever made and I will never live without one again.


I've learned that painting your emotions is very rewarding.

Ive learned that cars break down just when you least expect it and that if something is wrong to get it fixed as soon as possible.


I've learned that its ok to ask for help and that I don't have to be the strong one for everyone!

I learned that teenagers are lazy and the smartest people on the planet (at least they think they are LOL)

Ive learned that you have to accept people for who they are right now if they change its got to be their choice!

Ive learned if you don't feel that tingly feeling when your with someone its probably not going to happen later.

Ive learned that swimming really does make you sleepy LOL

Ive learned that putting a store together is hard ass work and I never leave stuff laying in a store anymore I put it back on the shelves where I got it from!

Ive learned that I am human, I make mistakes, I f*** up all the time and I don't know everything.

Ive learned that deep down I am one of those people that will be there for her friends in whatever capacity is possible .

Ive learned that text messaging is fun when not abused.

Ive learned that if someone doesn't call or write it doesn't mean they don't think about you.

Ive learned that sometimes its better to just wait and see then to stress out.

Ive learned that pain medications can make you stop peeing LMAO and that is not fun!

Ive learned that its ok to be sad or happy or what ever your feeling becuase your feeling it and no one else need take that on all they have to do is accept your feeling at the time or walk away.

I've learned that I don't see the world the way other people do and that is ok

I've learned that selfish people suck but self worth is critical to survival

I've learned that being happy above all other feelings is what makes each day bearable.


I know there is more but I think these are some of the most important lessons I have learned this year I will add more if I think of them.

Heres to learning more about life next year, and becoming a stronger and much wiser person for it!


Have a beautiful day All
anna

Rex left today

Rex is off and running again, he left to go pick up his new truck this morning in ocala and start a new journey on the map.


hannah, yall wanna meet at 1 on Sunday when the museum opens and then we can go do something afterwards? I wonder if I can come across 192 past 95 with all the fires etc.. I will look that up today. Im also gonna call to see if i can bring in my camera that would be cool to get pictures in there.


We went down to Old town last night.. it was alot of fun, went to this bar and they were doing a version of do you know the lyrics LOL I knew singing karaoke on the dock would come in handy one day LOL... we both made it to round 3 and rex got an elton john song (he cant stand elton john so he didnt even know the words LOL) and I got a tim mcgraw song and I sang the whole thing till he cut the music and I drew a blank completely lmao damit! the dj was funny though and he liked us hanging out there I thought he was gonna cry when we were leaving LMAO. We had a good time for sure!


anyway its back to reality today!


well actually Im off today so im gonna catch some rays this afternoon! and chill out today then back to reality tomorrow.


Hope you all are having a great morning
anna

I found what I want to do for my birthday

Ok its not daring and insane or crazy but this is where Im going and what Im going to do as my birthday treat...brevard museum
sooo cool!

Anna

what a week~

well, its been a few days since i posted anything but heres the catch up.

I did five weddings and worked 45 hours at the store.. that in itself was tiring. thank god Im off today so i can catch up on a few things.

Rex came home on tuesday and has been here all week, not that we have really had much time together but its been fun to have him here.

I had a weird dream last night that someone told me they decided to make things work with their new friend. not that it matters really since we have all moved on to new chapters but it was still kinda i dont know to hear those words come out of his mouth even in a dream was sad a little.

13 days to the first anniversary of my 40th birthday... trying to think of something amazing to do for it... rex will be on the road so I guess it will be just me trying to find something special to do for myself.


feeling a little melancholy today maybe its the weather, LOL

well I hope you all are doing well and having an amazing weekend, Im off to clean house and do laundry,

Anna

today was better

i went and did a wedding this morning. a little one but it was nice to have something to do, and then I came home and chilled out... finally got an email from rex, he wasnt mad he had lost his phone at a truck stop in memphis and didnt have any of the phone numbers for anyone... ugh thats a sucky thing about long distance relationships.. you have to communicate or your stuck wondering wtf is going on. especially when you have a routine and the routine gets broken.

well im up

now what will i do. i got the camera battery charged up .. its still really early i think Ill get in the boat and ride over to the cove and see if anythings moving around over there.

2 more days and Im off yeayyyyyyyyy

cant wait for this week to end... I am soooo tired. and i need some sunshine and r and r... Rex is still in tennessee, I dont know if he will make it home or not by the weekend. we shall see. his truck broke down again on him yesterday but this morning he left me a message saying that they are giving him a new one when he heads out again next week... that should be nice. he wont have to worry about losing loads anymore.

well I have to close tonight so I better get busy getting ready.

Hope you all have an amazing day
Anna